The Chaos Returns

If I were to write about all of the problems related to college degrees that I encountered in the span of my succinct 17 years, then I would undoubtedly be able to produce a series of books. That is just a glimpse of how massive my dilemma really is.

I definitely won't delve into the history deeper, because if I did I might not be able to finish this post soon. The history calls for another story, in another time. For now, I suppose I better talk about the present. About what is happening in my mind.

Ever read my previous posts under the same label?

You might have thought that I was already completely certain I would pursue BS Development Communication.

Well, yes, I thought so too.

Of course I never forgot about Geology. It was always at the back of my mind. In fact, when my parents confirmed my decision about staying in UPLB, I responded this way: "Yes, I will finish BS DevCom. I would just take up a second degree in Geology after I graduate." I was still that passionate about it. And I would admit that there were instances when I would be tempted to transfer. But I was able to contain myself.

Barely, though.

And indeed, the desire seemed to explode soon enough after being contained for a while.

Now, I am considering of transferring again. The situation has reversed, 95% I would be transferring to Diliman, and the remaining 5% is the possibility that I would continue with DevCom. Quite ironic though, when I made that decision, the College of Development Communication received its title as a Center of Excellence from CHED. Such a perfect timing.

But no. I think I am quite certain I will choose Geology instead. I am obsessed with it, desperate to learn more, motivated to become a part of a scientific community.

I mentioned this to my mother a few hours ago, and it took some of my will power to do that. Her reaction is a bit . . . How should I call it? Too neutral, I suppose. And as usual, all she said was: "The decision is yours."

So am I absolutely sure this time? I am. The only hindrance is this:  Will I be able to transfer successfully? Will my grades suffice? Will I pass the interview? Only time will answer these inquiries.

Perhaps another factor that made me rethink is my DEVC 11 class. I remember a CDC instructor saying something like this before: "DEVC 11 will be the turning point. If you took it and didn't enjoy it, then shift to another course. Because it's basically the kind of thing DevCom practitioners will be doing in the future."

I don't really think that I can do what we're doing in DEVC 11 right now forever. I'm just not built for interviews, talking to people, being sociable, etc, etc. I am wired for writing and science. And I've read somewhere that writing is a necessary skill for geologists.

Please let me be a Geology student next A.Y.